I've had time to "get over it," for sure, and a lot has come to pass in my life in these past 11 years since she died.
Still, sometimes, memories of her come flooding towards me, and I can still feel stricken by the loss of her, like it just happened yesterday.
Today would be my Mum's 88th birthday, and ever since the other day when the thought of receiving mail from her popped into my head, I have not only thought of her often, but felt her mothering energy, encouraging and loving, I have drawn energy just thinking of her strength (she had six children AND worked full time as a nurse!)
Several years ago, I had recurring dreams that involved bears, Mum was in the dreams too, in one dream she even let a bear into my house! I told myself that these dreams were Mum's way of reaching out to me, I have ALWAYS paid attention to my dreams, but especially so when a bear shows up.
Writing this blog would (does) make my Mum proud, and as crazy as it sounds (maybe to some,) since feeling her presence so strongly, I feel infused with an energy and enthusiasm for writing like never before.. I'm on a huge adventure, and I LOVE not knowing where it may lead, I am satisfied with writing this blog in a way thats different from any previous creative endeavors.
Thank you everyone for reading, caring, and following.